i guessed i've used hahahahaha too much..
my hahas dun seem convincing anymore.
lol.
at least not to me.
at all.

this is the first time i wanna break free from this vicious cycle.
its tiring.n its not fulfilling at all.
we just work for the sake of working or maybe for the sake of
the results.
but wad concerns me more is the process.
wishfull thinking on my side yea.
everything dont seem as simple as it is on the surface.
i have to start learning from scratch i guess.

Some people act and do differently.
its scary.
though i am just an onlooker in this issue.
but seeing how people act like this makes me
realised how vulnerable a person can get sia.
resorting to all measures just trying to make themselves
feel good n denying all the dirty facts in the process once exposed.
i must say its effective to a certain extent ba.
cos they indeed seem to feel good or unaffected afterall.
anw it contradicts.i dont like.
only the ones who know the truth suffers.
but thank god
at least they wun fell for a 2nd time for sure.


i've taken things too simply all these time
i need to change.for the sake of changing.
if not i wun survive in this industry i guess.
typical adult mindset i know.
but it wld be good only if we can all act like children
cry when u r sad, smile and laugh when u are happy.
den i wun need to squeeze my brain juice dat much
to think all the time.haha

frens i am alrite.dun worry upon reading this post.
haha.just some food for thought k.
1 more week to show!
results are set now.
i tried my best.whatever results its gonna be.
i am still applauding myself for surviving the year.
i made it babes!hahahaha
i survived!!







如果你是所谓的大人，我就是所谓的死孩子

I Am Here!; Wednesday, May 27, 2009

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I Am Here!; Sunday, May 10, 2009

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FINALLY done with the dissertation!
but the binding itself cost me a bomb man!
dont understand y they need 2 same copies la.
cant they take turns to read?
my earnings and savings all squeezed dry by this sch sia.
especially nearing graduation..
models for internal n external assessment
all need money!n its no small amount=X
n the sch din contribute to anything at all.
NEVER before.
do we really need professional models for assessment?
i mean we just get somebody who can fit into the garments can
already right?
Moreover, the models for internal, external assessment
and runway are all different people!
its the final runways model's fit dat counts rite?
wad if the garments can fit into the models for assessment but
not for the runway models?
it really doesnt make sense to me.
=P

Many things happen in sch recently.
it doesnt really affect me directly la.
but from the 3rd person's point of view.
i realised things arent as simple as it seems on the surface.
its really disappointing.
humans are indeed selfish people.
will they ever think they are the ones at fault when problem arises?
no.they pushed the blame to others even if that person happen to
be the one who helped them the most.
it takes two hands to clap..
but wld they ever understand?
directing arrows at each other, will it solve the problem?
it just accumulates like a snowball.
just words of advice for whoever concern,
be more forgiving la.
n i dont really understand how can a person act differently infront
of different people.
isnt it tiring to play so many roles a day?
y cant we be just ourselves?
complicated human beings.

anw, its 15 days to assessment already.
i m seriously behind time lar.
omg!i better get back to drafting now
its gonna be a long night again.

I Am Here!; Monday, May 04, 2009

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